Saturday, May 14, 2005;21:13
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++ Emotional Distance ++
Before
...........After
in a secondI thought my hope will come true, hopin for a small compensation for my disappointment
Still a meaningless number since Feb
All i can do now is pls let me
for this whilePlan got called off , turned out to be a clearer reflection of reality
Tired U are, doesn't do it to be mean or nasty but
y U have to make it so obvious times to times ?
'HeS' capture U and always got U so occupied till not a single word, Y U love to place me as inattractive irritant boredom ?
I thought from 'him', U should have know how much hurts it can bring but empathy is not wat everyone knows
Have i been wrong on that phychological bond btw us
I thought we share a sense of sensitivity but a 'haiz' wasn't even understood
Just needed a caring word to keep my mouth shut is such a great demand for U
I have told U dat day that U have learnt to talk quite well but realised U still failed to master it well *L*
I thought it should have matured and strengthened but in fact it has been damaged from the prolonged torment & ruins
Trying hard to meet the emotional needs of you, my aim in life to make U happy
It is human nature to pursue happiness
I still remembered U want me to be happy too but how ironically it is when U are always the cause of my unhappiness
I always tried to face my fears to take the hardest initiatives
It takes me so much courage to face them
Setbacks & rejections are in fact always predicted and always get
Totally hit me hard on the ground this very moment
Strivin for control of my feeling
Exercising restraint all along was found not appreciated
Patience is bitter ...
Patience drained
Persistence drained
Determination drained
Within us - the See Saw, from this day i will not sit with you anymore
As i always got myself sinking and struggling into the pool beside it
I need respect much more from the need of pity
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有因必有果
佛怕因人怕果
没因那来果
还来还去
都离不了轮回
倒不如放下包袱
能够得道
朝生暮死
早离世间的苦海
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心中的"他" - 真的好愛他
He is my soulmate
He is someone i hate that doesn't know how to pursue own happiness
He is not accepting his true feelings
He cannot fully open up
He does feel the difference when he drifts
He doesn't know how much my heart aches
He is affected when he know unhappiness due to his behavior
He does not get depessed over it, in fact he gets angry with himself and then he lashes out at other people including me
He gets frightened and pulls away.
He is truly scared what future holds for him
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Sherr|ne 
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