Thursday, June 01, 2006;16:03
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++ ...place somewhere in the dark... ++
It has been days since i lasted update my blog..
Kinda lazy, nothing much to update as well.. and was also down with cold and sore throat...
Illness just made me so easily tired everyday..
I couldn't blog at work due to the firewall, but now i m blogging in office as i am now trying the program that is bypassing the firewall.. Its a success !! What a genius i m !.. hahaha
Having mixed feeling these few days... depressed plus happy ? hmmmz dunno why, just feel that some things dun seemed quite right in some ways..
My heart can never seemed to feel secure... helpppp!!!
Seeing so many broken hearts around even sianz 1/2...and then started to degrade themselves with alcohol, gals/guys etc.... like that very happy meh ??
It is just a way of showing off to that him/her you can still enjoy life without him/her , with doing stupid things and meaningless stuffs..
Making the pathetic life into even a big trauma..what for ???
After then leh ?? The pain resurfaces again..
I went thru this before , you will get ntg in return..adding more misery to yourself and even burnt a big hole in ur pocket....and most important is that he/she will think you have changed.. changed from bad to worse (without him/her).
He/she wont get jealous, they will just feel you are so immature and silly.
So what kind of life do you wan to live ???
Was May a bad month for relationship???
Hope June will be a better month..
Talking back about the lie i found out...
One asked me why i so naive ? *shocked* haha
One told me there sure to be a reason for such a lie to be told..maybe just dun wish to make u unhappy...
Well, i of coz know there was but who will still be happy being lied to ne ???
Anyway i have forgotten abt this matter... no point upset over smething that has already a past.
But that doesnt mean to encourage more lies...
Received a call from a friend at work early morning yesterday, telling me things abt the biatch..
It has been almost 3 yrs, i still can hear things abt her from anyone, anywhere.. kAoz.. ..
Really a mental disorder pc of thing..now she is still doing cranky hallucinating things again, even to my friend...
Kinda find it hilarious that someone used to rather trust her who he just known for less than a mth than to believe in me who he has known for years .. haha.. maybe that shows how smart he is bah haha..
Happy for Ben Nan Ren as he has finally 'half found' himself a job of his interests... *zipped*
Happy that i could go do some shopping as it is now having the Great Singapore Sale..
Hope things will get better around me soon....
I wanna be a happy person ....!
Sherr|ne 
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