Friday, May 12, 2006;23:56
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Now online using mum's laptop..
Unable to use my own computer as sis's comp somehow got into cranky today, totally unable to start the comp at all.
So she has to use mine to get her office work done the whole day..
Rather disappointed once i relogin after bathing but well....
I hv hoping or hv planning in mind everytime but somehow it seemed impossible again...
Presence unknown ..."busy" was told...
Frankly speaking, i deeply dun like that word..
Oh well, disappointments seemed to be evolving around me recently..daily..
I think i wouldnt even feel a bit of pain if i died of heart attack now..hahaha
Off from work tmr, my colleague wanna change saturday off with me.
So great news for me.. a long weekends..At least something worth happy about.
Sometimes i wonder what exactly have i done
Sometimes i wonder why am i being treated this way.
Sometimes i wonder why do i have to incur so much pain.
Sometimes i wonder why do i have to shut myself outta reality juz to numb the pain
Sometimes i wonder why can't i let my tears flow freely in order to feel better
Sometimes i wonder why does a simple thing becomes so complicated?
Sometimes i wonder why do we have to go thru so much pain
Life is bloody screwed when u've to face so many fiaked up situations.
I REALLY miss the rainbows i used to have in my beautiful life *sighhhzz*
Humans are funny thing & its hard understanding them, not to say to 'inhuman' ones.
No doubt humans are selfish & wanting everything to go their way,if it doesnt meet to their eye or should anyone retaliate back they will start making a big hoohaa & showing attitude.
Seriously i don't understand whats the problem with the ppl around nowadays.
I do not know really what benefit do they get for acting such a way to pple that care so much for them ?
Aint life supposed to be beautiful? Is this called beautiful life?
Its really horrible to be in such situations. Why ME ?? Why must be ME ??
How i wish to be given a choice i would like to turn back time & have my beautiful rainbows back in my life. :/
Why aint there really a time machine ???
Yes i do agree it is beautiful to be able to live in this world where u've got challenges & obstacles to overcome but why issit that its causing so much pain & stress so much so dat life began to be so dull?
Or am i brooding too much dat the stress i have in me is self created & is partially my fault?
I seriously doubt so.
Who on earth who like to make themselves depressed???? No one does!!
I've been in forced into depression mode thrice or more times till i hv simply lost count of them & i dun wana make it happen again... coz it sucks badly & aint easy to be happy again.
Sighzz. hopefully things will be better.
I'll just have to numb myself again from all those pains to make myself happy.
Pardon me for ranting again hahaha..maybe really getting old and naggy lolx..
Since ntg to do, i hv been watching "Da Chang Jin" DVD that mum hv borrowed from her colleague;
I then trimmed & polished my nailz (needz to tidy for the wedding dinner) while watching....
And also....carried out hair removal mission lolx...
^mao-less wahahaha^
Parents have also finally managed to borrow "I not stupid too" VCD from my cousin for me...yeah!!
Val has been telling me how nice the show was, and i really wanted to watch it so badly..
Maybe watch it together wif parents tmr, if i managed to find time to watch ^_^
Almost 2am...realised it is now 13th May... seemed to almost forgotten abt this number le..time really flies.. a month passed by a month... a year passed by a year...
Ok enuff of my lor li lor soh...back to my bai fen bai and da chang jin...CiaOsSsss!
Sherr|ne 
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