Thursday, January 19, 2006;22:28
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++ Can i dun work ???? ++
Have been feeling quite down due to work..temper also went damn bad!Somehow feel rather 'mistreat' around the dept.
Today finally cannot take it and stand it..cried in office and those who saw me crying were taken aback .. I m just so disappointed with my manager and the bloody stupid insensitive people.. Haiz dunno..despite siding me or understand the whole situation, i feel she just cares more about her welfare...
Good contributions they fight to claim credit..Mishaps they play tai ji every second.
2 days in a week i have to do operations which i couldn't do much of my own work.
I have to learn overall operation in doc dept as Agnes and Chooi Mei are going maternity leave in March.
I don't even have time to do the ISO filing and monitoring since 6 mths ago..this coming March i sure going to die.
Recently emails to follow up are piling up...
I wanna do the report but i dun even hv time or space to think.
Work can be so irritating when i have to do the monthly schedule and things can just crop up, leaving me so pissed of...
Do i have super brain and memory ???
I just cant help thinking my work is so fiaked up!
Manager not leaving much responsibility tasks to Supervisors but leaving to either me or Val.. or Supervisors pushing all 'dislike' matters to us...reason coz ur english better mah.. u smart mah...u know how to handle lar..
i really dunno what the hell is this ???
Higher pay do lesser and having lesser responsiblities to bear ?
OT for such a pay i getting ? No way for that.
Why should i when those taking higher pay go home at 6pm sharp???
What i hated most was my manager told me yesterday "U must help to lighten my burden coz i always need to monitor the operations..u know unfortunately there is no one around the dept that could help me take over operations.."
Her tone was like "dun create prob for her"
what is that ?? My prob issit ?
She herself rely on people and when things goes well..she diam diam...
Thing happened , she talked such rubbish! aRghz!
I am just not going to really talk to her till i hv calmed dwn.
This should be the 2nd time of the 5 yrs plus in the stupid company that i ever cried over..doing so many cleaning up of pple's shit and bearing so many responsibilities that my position shouldn't oblige to..maybe that is what working life is about..I even wish to just grab my bag and leave the place or just leave the fiaking brainless company!
I still feel very moody.
Val even said i under depression arh haha..
Glad at least during lunchtime they would asked me why i cried.. not like my manager..her concern was in her joking tone asking why i so black face early in the morning.Aint she asking the bloody obvious??
Whatever it is, going to care about my bonus , hoping it is coming on Sat or Monday.. going to hack all the work! And oso the CNY.
Wanna take leave to go saloon to do my hair for CNY ..also can't find the time to..
Mega Haiz..really must find a day soon..time is running out and my mood is deteriote as well..
After work, went Tiong Bahru Plaza with Sue Ann.
Maybe too moody, i was into shopping spree..
I got 2 tops, a short pants and a pleated skirt costed $116+
Then also got a silver whitish slip-ons costed $19.90.
Sue Ann even asked me "Happy lor, today bought so many clothings"
To be frank, i dun feel anything or a tiny wit of happiness..
Just browse around, feel the item ok.. i buy lorz..
Somemore recently feel all clothings in my wardrobe damn sianz..everyday dunno what to wear.
Shopping till about 8pm bah, feeling rather hungry..
Was hoping to go for something nice to eat, thinking maybe eating might can make mi more happier..
But too bad no company...got home and then cooked instant mee for dinner suan le..
** This Post For Venting & Entertainment Purposes , Not Against Anyone **
Sherr|ne 
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