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I have been updating a lot of my current life and events.. so many getting bored ya ?? LOL

So ok.. here i come ranting on something different.....

FOR EVERYONE, I EMPHASIZE THAT BELOW ARTICLE DOES NOT RELATE MUCH ABOUT ME NOW , JUST MERELY GENERALLY RANTING ARTICLE !!!
THERE IS NOT A NEED TO THINK TOO HARD INTO IT

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TITLE : That is how much i love him

I always want him to be the most happiest and fortunate guy in this world but it seemed i am unable to do enuff to make him feel that way

I will always leave the very last piece of our fav. food to him..but i never know if he ever noticed that

I always hope i could be there for him to take care of him when he is sick, but i never could as never a single time i could feel the courage to do so from him

I always hope to be able to kick away all hurdles and obstacles btw us but never a time i could feel that i m the one he wants to do that with..

I am always there for him without fail, and giving him my utmost support to him, be it emotionally, physcially and financially, providing unconditonally love for him but maybe to him, i hv owe him all these in our previous life.

I always do my best to read his mind, understand his tots and feelings without him telling me..
I always try to be very observant with his needs and wants...but i never know if he ever appreciated that

I have always been so forgiving with all his endless hurts, pains, rejections and betrayals which makes him and others think i m stupid,insane and brainless

I never demand or get help from him not coz he dun hv the ability or not capable to do so, but just feeling that with him by my side is greatly enuff for me... but maybe to him, he might think i find him useless

I hv naturally becomes the silly xiao nu ren, giving in , keeping mum when i got upset frm him, dare not get angry or flare up whenever i got disappointed .
Keep quiet when he put friends priority at every single second...
..which he feelz he is never oblige in doing so and maybe i just dun deserve him..

I hv never bother if there is any birthday present from him ,just wants him to spend the special day with me but he can give people present without them askin for it

I hv always try to make his birthday a memorable one but he never do it once for me..
maybe to him, he just dunno how to make one or why bother make me one

I hv to turn ignorant when my intuition told me he lied

I hv to act and stay cool when people told me he is a jerk or bastard..

I can only complain to miself when i felt injustice

I always feel like killing miself when people influenced him to get rid of me or taken me as 3rd party..

I hv to stay fearful , scared and worried of losing him any moment and every second that eventually i felt so stressed out and exhausted

However, i know i m to blame, how ones treat me is how i actually led and taught them to..

Of coz natually people tend to side their friends, well try putting urself into my shoes on the love i hv offered thats not only 1 day, 6 mths or a year..

I thought one day i could touched him to be more brave as my one and only greatest wish is just to gain that little respect, a better fair treatment and be doted but i have to admit i just dun hv that power to do so..

Is it so much to ask for and to make one to love u..n yet some can get what they want from him when they dun hv to ask for..

Yes that is my lovey love for him..

THE END or to be continued..

Hahahaha !!

*** Writer holds no responsibilty and obligation to respond anything in regards to this article***
So dun be dumb dumb wants gum gum ok ? haha!