Feeling now :
- the 2 words 絕情 -
- Feeling quite upset when someone is not reliable and caring to my feelings -
- When there is no balance in the way someone deals with things, it is so hurting to find out why someone in silence....- sad sad sad
- Trying to put all the pieces in place ... only confusions i got..alot of things and feelings already do not make sense anymmore..
- Either burst in tears or moved into tears.. ???

The day finally came yesterday - 13.10.2006 (the itch year)
I have taken a day leave from work..
Initially i have given up the tots and felt that all wishes will just vanished into the air so i have totally put off all the plans i hv made..
Glad that at least a little of the wishes were granted.

The wishes :
- Spend the day together
- The neoprints
- a little gift

The plan :
- On leave - i was, he couldnt
- Spend the day
- Hisatomo
- Plea for pics/neoprints taken together
- Fondue and dinner @ a recommended place in Suntec (Swiss Cottage or what name i forgot).

Unfortunately , only 1 and half wishes were fulfilled.. =(

I wasn't sure if he remembered what day it was, i wasnt sure if he actualy bothered as he once put a bad mark in Feb but still appreciated that he din put a bad forecast on this day.. coz it REALLY meant a lot to me..
I'm indeed shd b very contented le. ^_^

I was out since 3pm, then i rushed all the way from Katong to Bugis to meet up wif him after his course....and obviously he wasnt quite happy with the 1 hour wait

Then he treated me to V8 Restuarant for our dinner....
After then, we walked past the neoprints area..but still i dun dare to ask... , i know he will just reject me on the spot..
Thou i wanna it so badly but i felt i dun wanna get miself upset and then dampen the mood at that time ..=(

Then he accompanied me to the supermart to get rice wine to 'cure' my 'rashes problem'
- a remedy he asked me to try... and i hv yet to try it..hope it works.
The rashes at times really pissed me off as it kept disturbing my sleep in the middle of the night!!
My mum has 'ordered' me to go Skin Centre to get it checked as long-term on medication aint going to help for life...see how bahz..

After getting the rice wine , and since i wasnt sure about the time the place of the 'fondue' at Suntec closed so i suggested to go Cineleisure for their dessert..
Wanna him to try something new thou i know he hates sweet stuffs..
Still I ordered the fondue for 2...well, he seriously dun like it.. but actually was the fondue of the place not really nice.


Looked nice but actually so so nia... the fruits not fresh...

We have some chats, talked about life, talked about our home backgrounds... and i witnessed that 'expression' from his face - a rare expression to catch as he always juz dun show people his inner tots and feelings..
It has been years that I always need to go analyse him miself.. Sighz..

Frankly speaking, from the comparison, obviously we both came from 2 different worlds..
It is like one HELL and one HEAVEN ...but feeling maybe aint that why i always wanna protect him and always try to make him happy.. yet he always let me live in HELL..=X

From then, i then realised what goals he hv , what has he been kisiao about...
at least now i can see a bit , just a little bit he is crawling out of the quicksand le...
Will he succeed or will he being pulled back again?? hmMmz..

Talked about house then talked about car.. well of coz who wont like to have car..can go anywhere anytime..
Who dont wish to anytime can go geylang for supper, go Mt Faber for scenery, go Esplanade see stars...go whatever park for car spin...
I wish too....but ....

I cant deny i could never fit in....


- A pen i got from Mini Toons.. since was paid by his $ , i will take it a little gift of the special day ..silly me lolx

- Saw the cutie dangling curtains i always wanna get...any1 wanna get for me ???

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Today went VivoCity... really a big place - what shops u want simply can find it there...




And i finally got a NEW digitial camera as a gift in advance for my birthday!!!
So happy !! =)

Initially wanna get the sensual PINK Sony T10 coz of its PINK but every Salespersons totally discouraged.
They said the camera really only nice on the outlook... the images aint that sharp and nice.
They urged us to get a functionality digicam i/o based on the outlook.
Go for a brand that is specialized in camera...



So in the end, i chose the Olympus all weather u700...very small and light
Costed about $549.. thankz ya that someone ^_^ , i will cherish it de !
Now i can bring a digicam whenever i go hehez...



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Random Pics taken


In office on Thurs...



With my little My Melody...


Nor & Me


- The day going Bird Park...



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Taken in the lift somewhere yesterday...


Artistic Shot by me in the car...
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Before i end, i guess its time for me to put up my bday wishlist -

So here it is...

1) Digicam

2) Watch

3) Red Quilted Bag

4) Card Reader

5) Pink Mouse

6) to be continued......