Tuesday, March 14, 2006;21:50
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++ -Totally Stressed Out- ++
Feeling so tired and depressed.Work getting so busy after the 2 colleagues went on maternity leave.
I simply dun have a time to take a break...
Rushed the survey from customers, presentation for ISO , then the daily doc duties, email problem resolutions..
& its time to start doing the schedule .. All these driving me crazy !!!
Tried to start doing the schedule as early as i can so i wont get to wear out but i just cant do it... So many invoices and costings to approve..
I cant afford to make mistakes on that, so i gota check the invoicing thoroughly plus i am still fresh to the task.
Then came an additional stupid time-consuming report to be done daily required by the director..feel like fucking him up n down...
Everyday i need to stay back for at least an hour+ to get it done when i everyday wanted to rush back home to 'check on' & take care of my mum..
Hate dat bloody report !!
Things aint the same anymore, I have my "Qian Gua" now.
Everyday my concern is to get home as fast as i can.
Sometimes people just wont understand the worries and fear inside you when things never happen to them...
Today mum started her 1st hateful treatment, we are all so worried...so i wanna get home as soon as i can...i cried out but realised no1 is willing to give you a little of helping hand to get the work done in the soonest time... the most
2 person or more to do the task sure finish up more faster......
But all i got in return is disappointing reply " It is YOUR job leh, dat time i was juz helping you to do it" - When i heard it, i was totally taken aback.. how much it sounded from Zu's mouth...
Rephrase in a line -
I juz need a fast help in one ETA coz i only left 2 and i can leave together but all left without saying a word of concern..
What i feel is you willingly help them hopping around reading all the emails,doing their connecting for them, cant even help me a single ETA?
Coz they are so much closer ????
Did i say to help ALL while i am halfway thru ??
Must ans in that way ? my job ur job ? It is never my job..or even urs
Did i always seek out for help ???? I dun rem so...
I never try to trouble you with my work
I have expected to stay back when i know i have to take over the docs side but who know my mum got sick...
With my mum like dat.. all i asked is a little bit of understanding.. at least for the tis month..
If they need ur assistance, i bet u will help...
There is ntg to do with independence here.
Not angry with others ??
I m utterly aware of their fiaked up attitude..Wendy asked MJ to inform shipper a BL-related mattter, she complained to me let her do something she never do before which is just informing.
Wendy asked Zu to inform another BL issue, she came telling me now she gota do BL stuff...
Tell me is there a need to be angry over such pple ??? I dun even feel like asking them for help...! They would reply me WHAT u have replied me
just like "ur english better what, so u do lor"
It is MY job ??? Was Docs side my job ? Was ISO my job ? The whole dept's reports MY job ??
Pls define my job scope...
How i wish i can bochup and take a few days' leave to take care of my mum...
If i really bochup and goes on leave, WHOSE job will it be ?!!?
It wont be Wendy, wont be Zu , wont be May, won't be the so-called juniors ???
Those boliaoz tasks will then passed to WHO ?!??
Ans is very obvious...
Whatever it is, try to do as much as i can.. do as fast as i can...
Dun wanna think so much anymore or bother too much....
I juz wish my mum to get back into good health soon...
I m trying to be responsible to my work but juz feeling so pissed off from doing it now!
Hoping to be able to access email from home and work from home.. maybe i really run down on luck, no 1 able to assist on my problem...
NO1 JUST UNDERSTAND !!!!!
I dun want promo...i dun want more bonus....
I will be so willingly to transfer tasks for those who want it...
I never ask for those tasks before..
Now feeling so heartbreaking seeing the suffering of my mum...
Intended to take leave tmr to look after my mum but the damn presentation postponed till Wed that left me with no choice to go office in the day and maybe take half day.
Constantly need to check my mum's temperature now...
If mum's condition worsen tmr morning, i will have to care less.. ...my mum is more impt!
Now she is feeling so unwell and unbearable from the effects of the treatment...
Whole family losing appetite and moodless..
Dad is upset...and I m crying..
Hope the shitty effects go off tmr.
How i wish could replace my life with the pain my mum is suffering now....
Sherr|ne 
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