Wednesday, October 26, 2005;12:03
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++ -Dunno What To Say- ++
Feeling damn stressed out, very upset.. dunno what to say...dunno what to think..
Tot i wont get so upset again ever since 2 months plus ago...but today i just needa controlled my tears..
Not sure the reasons for it.. many to it, i think..
I was so happy all these mths...but life just always wanna get me down.
Everything has it place.
And everything has its moment.
Just like people do.
One has his say, one has her say... However, assigning blame is useless.
I only open myself to confusion, turmoil and self-inflicted heartaches.
I now just feel so ashamed, ashamed why things turned out this way.. This aint what i wanted!
Feels like digging a hole and hide miself in...
Do they know for it is very impt to me and i treasure what i have with them now..?
...These are what i left now..
I learned a painful, but valuable lesson from this incident.
Each lessons to learn, and faults my fingers to burn.
Lesson i learnt: Believe only in yourself.
Do not take things too lightly.
Seeing is believing.
At that moment, care & comfort or even some lame jokes become the ingredients needed to keep the smile alive despite separation, distance, or time.
The care & comfort or that lame jokes very much needed to gets me past the great sadness but sadly to say.. he doesn't know how to react towards me anymore..
I don't blame him..for i know the blockage is there...and I'm sorry.
Praying things will just get better soon....
Sherr|ne 
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