Just got back home not long ago, very tired.. so i wont blog much .. haha...

After work, Val, Sue Ann, DoL & m3 decided to go out for some shopping in town..

@t Tanjong Pagar MRT Temporary Shopping Mall :

It is the last day today, so we went to check out if there are any CHEAP stuffs for grab...and yah indeed, they starting to slash down all the pricings..


^Can you see ?? $2 only !!! even some dresses were at $2^


^Crazy doL trying out an 'ugly' furry coat which she tot was nice^ lolx


And i got this lacy floral skirt for ONLY $2 ! damn cheap ya ???

Then we met up with Hui Min @ Orchard - from there we proceeded to Far East Plaza...



Dinner 1st - to prevent doL and Sue Ann from fainting due to hunger haha...



We landed ourselves in one of the food stalls at the top floor of Far East Plaza..
seriously the food there so so only...

I ordered dry fried beef horfun...


Looked nice but taste not that fantastic and it costed me $4.50 for it..



^Presenting the Gluttons^

We had our dinner as fast as we can so that we could have ample time to shop before the shops closed...

Saw a lot of polka dots tops but all seemd so 'common', i hv already seen those designs worn by people.. see liaoz oso sianz to get it....
Simply every shops are selling Victorian style tops or top with laces etc.. i already hv too many till Sue Ann and Dol are complaining abt it.. they are too sianz of me wearing those styles le hahahaha.. i told them everywhere are selling that now, they dun let me buy.. i got ntg to wear le hahaha...
So in the end i din get miself any clothings- shown them whatever clothings,
DoL will say 'think you already have something like this top , get other different styles or design lar etc'.. *slap forehead* - the problem is DUN HAVE WAT!!
Sue Ann will asked me to stop all those kind of tops...
=X aiyoo i bo CLOTHINGS to buy and wear le if like dat... hahaa...

Eventually, I only got miself 3 necklaces.....*faintz*


The white and black ones costed only $5 each & the gold one with cross costed for $10
3 necklaces for $20 , quite cheap right ??

When all shops were slowly closing one by one, meant it is time for us to head for home..


Val getting cakes for Ahhui before we walked to the taxi stand...
see she still can posed for me lolx..


As usual, the taxi queue is always SO long like dragon....

Everyone of us cfm have to on call for cab, if not we think we going to wait for at least an hr for cabs ..
Within 10mins, i managed to get thru the hotline and got miself a cab... so i was the 1st one to leave...is that the possible advantage we can think of to pay an extra of $4 for cabfare ??? hahaha

Not quite a fruitful shopping day today for everyone of us ....

I am simply losing respect for miself till it is making me so sick and i know i have so much to offer..and i deserve to be happy.

Realised what is/are the problem/s that causing my confidence level to go SO low..

Dislikes miself for not able to overcome the fear to being totally open and honest.., even can feels my self-esteem going more n more low...

Everything is so imbalance now.

I should stand up for myself...and makes myself HAPPY and put my own needs first..

At times it seemed like everything is against ME, however it might only takes one small change to make it all better...!!

Bless ME !!

Again very lazy @ work today...din touch anything on the ISO again..Haiz.. Soon will be going to see me burning midnite oil these few days rushing it out again....damn! feel so sickening thinking of this task.... kill me someone !!!!!!

Val's dad 's report out today and she took half day leave in the morning.. dunno what happened, the booking calls were simply non-stop in the whole morning...then when she is back in the noon, dun seemed much calls ... kaoz...

The result is kinda expected thou, she has somehow guessed it....Can see she is struggling hard inside her.. but however hope she keeps her siaoness and happy self through whatever things going to turn out to be...everything will be fine eventually..

After work, then went Tiong Bahru Plaza with her.
The well-known shopacholic was so low in mood,in the end she ONLY got herself 1 blouse (so unlike her ya)
And i spent over $80 on 2 capri shorts and 1 skirt.. GSS is bluff people one haha...said 25% discount, in the end why in total still so ex ???
*faintz* and then realised All are bottoms!!! I am now into shorts and mini cute pants now.. esp. cute cute ones =x

Then we came across this beauty saloon at the ground floor promoting eyebrows embroidery..a friend recommended this saloon to me before..
aiyoo they show the process of the embroidery on tv...looks scary with somehow a tool that look like sharp blade piercing thru the brow and skin..
However, were told by many that wont feel any pain throughout the process due to anaesthesia will be applied..
Maybe should check it out there again..

the 3 bottoms i got today...::::::







Then on way back home, had the urge to eat spring chicken but too bad there is no stall selling it nearby my home, unless i go Bukit Batok Kopitiam..Haha but journey too far..forget it!

No choice, i replaced it with KFC Zinger Meal since i walked past KFC and there aint any queue. If long queue i wont have buy it.
I really hv no idea what to get for dinner everyday.....everything eat till so sianz..

Also feeling like eating froggie porridge..........-_-""


^Tempting ???^

Sianz and tired... think i should turn in now... Ciaosss

The wound on the right nostril is healing much faster than the one on my left chin..
I expect the wound on my left chin to recover 1st, however the much seriously 'injured' one heals faster , weird lolz..

Still seemed like having a blemish on my left chin.. luckily basing on the condition, i should be able to conceal with concealer tmr onwards...^_^
Then slowly wait for it the dried skin to fall out and fade off..yeah!

The mole which i have for over 20 yrs is gone.....!!


The most irriating dunno-came-from-where mole is now gone.....!

Thinkin next thing should i get eyebrows embroidery... there are pricing of $200+ to $500+..
so luan.. dunno what is what..
Eyelashes Perming ?? Eyelashes Extension ??
Or should i follow Val to consult on dental surgery ?? Erm..hv no courage for that
Next mth then think abt it... this month super overspent le...Sighz..

Also one thing for sure now i wan to aim is Whitening.. Whitening...Whitening skin...
feels that my skin like become darken, must be the HOT Sun !!

Dunno whats wrong with me ??? seemed like feeling so small of miself and losing self-confidence ??? Hmmmz dunno....suddenly feel that i m losing out to the world...
How m i able to compete with others if i dun do something abt it ???
and also i can make miself more happier this way bah..

'There is no ugly nu ren, only lazy nu ren' mah...
i m just a ben nu ren..

With increased self-confidence, maybe somehow life will improve or move into a better way...
who knows rite... nothing is predictable in life and life has so many choices and decisions to make..
You can make a difference to yr life if u choose and decide to make it different ^_*
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Getting abit stressed out and panic with the incoming internal audit next week..so many docs not done yet...*mega faintz* - only a few days left more to get all done and i simply hv no mood to do it..arghhz..i hate this work!!

Today, my manager asked me to discuss on the incoming increment, reviewed each colleague with her and graded accordingly.... kinda quite disappointed as there wont be any promotion this year.. haiz haiz haiz...now all i can hope is the increment to be good then...

Heard from DJ of FM93.3 that the new movie Superman is not bad. He went missing and then his gf has someone new ,quite interesting plot on why he went missing etc.. .. i wanna go watch !!

On leave today

Went for my appt at 10pm with Medora Centre For Aesthetic Medicine on the comestic surgery.

I left home at 830am..as i m not sure where's this Camden Medical Centre @ One Orchard Boulevard. I only know it is near Tanglin Mall...so its better to leave home early to search for that place..

In the end, i reached Orchard @ 915am...walked all the way to Tanglin Mall...i wandered around the area for almost 40mins till i finally found the place. I was like a lost doggy on the road.
People was all rushing to work... or those bangladeshies working hard along the roadside.. lolx..
I was then already perspiring walking around Tanglin Road - Grange Road etc.. jus to find that place
Luckily, i managed to find the place by 10am..




Was kinda scared of what will be going on the next...as i hv no idea how the place will be like, wat kind of doctor will i be seeing, etc...but still i plucked all my courage and proceeded to 3rd level

The moment i saw the name of the clinic, i pushed open the door.. i found out it was actually quite a small surgery clinic which decorated like somehow a spa centre...cosy outside but scary inside when u see the operating theatre and resting bays in the rooms..



They prepare a trolley of beverages for their clients near the reception.
Their waiting seats were with those silky embroidery pillows...

There are 2 pretty young nurses and an elderly receptionist...3 of them were very friendly and nice.. making sure i am comfy with miself..



I waited for about 10mins then the doctor, Dr Medora directed me to his room and consulted me with my procedure of interest....mole removal.

Haha then he was so cute, he examined client by STARING straight into the eyes at least 3 times... made me so paiseh that i kept moving my contact away from him..
Then he asked me why i never tot of doing double eyelids.. i told him nah.. when young , maybe ... now not anymore..
I am ok with my own eyes... i m comfortable with them.. lolx
Basically, i dun think i would wanna do anything to hurt my eyes even though now such surgery are now damn simple now...simply dun need to cut the skin or wat..
Thinking , if i really did the double eyelids thingy..i really feel after then i wont look like miself anymore... the changes will be to great for people to accept..

So he quoted me the charges for the surgery... i tot for a min and decided to go ahead with the surgery..
Since i wanted to remove the most irritating -pop-out-of-nowhere mole on my right nostril..i removed the one on my left chin too - 'something' that i had it since the day i was born i think.. dun rem also, only after teenage or after something ben nan ren told me several years ago then i started to realise the existence of it lolx...

So 5 mins later, the doc get ready for the surgery and the nurse directed me to the operating theatre...

I was asked to lie down then...the nurses and doctors gave really good service, they make sure i am fine with everything from the beginning to the end.. i would recommend them if anyone would like to have some services from them..

ok back to the surgery...

1) anaesthesia was injected around the area of the 2 moles, so that i would feel the pain when the doc performed the surgery on me...
Scared me sia... needles !!! sypringes !! I endured while the nurse grabbed tightly onto my hands lolx...however the pain was actually bearable

2) used an eye mask to cover my eyes..

3) the doctor will kept telling me what he was doing and then kept asking me if i felt any pain everytime the he performed with the laser.. tell ya.. really scary when u imagined something actually hot burning onto ur skin and yet u cant feel it lolx..
I just could smell the 'burnt' smell..the doctor still can tell me 'the smell is terrible right' haha

I could not feel anything on the area on my chin...
Only when he performed to remove the mole on my right nostril then I slowly could feel the pain when the laser kept hitting onto the area on my right nostril...
The doc said that was a deep one.. so i can only felt he kept shooting it with the laser and then screwing it with dunno what.. i cant see mah..
I kept going 'ouch ouch' then the doc will always stopped and then apologized to me and then resumed the op again...haha
Cute doctor indeed..

I think the surgery only took 20mins.. phewz !!!
All i saw miself in the mirror was the expected blemish i sure to get after the op...
The doctor then told me to rest outside for 10mins to make sure the bleeding has stopped.
I only can feel some burning sensation at the wounded areas...
Actually the bleeding has already stopped but i still guai guai sat there.



- after the surgery...

Left the clinic at 10.55am.. haha that moment i got so self-conscience.
So scared people tio scared by me.. or will stare @ my face..
Thinking doubt i could go anywhere, getting miself home is the best option..
Actually, tot maybe can drop by and find nan ren for lunch before i go home, but eventually i thnk it is a bad idea.. dun wanna scare him..
(although i know he would said will he ever bother etc? hahahaha)
It is better to get mi wounds heal at home.. dun anyhow run about...
Hence,i went straight home... luckily din find him for lunch, he was out of office for some works during that time..

Got home, showed my face to my mum, she got shocked.. lolx..just told her abt it on tues then 3 days later really go did it...
Got dad to buy lunch for me then i went to nap till 4+pm.. shiok!

Just told my sis about it , she was oso shocked.. all din expected i would be so determined and quick in getting it done...

Haha yeah something i did all alone.. all by miself.

Why am i so determined with it ?
1) somehow really getting frustrated with them when i looked into the mirror
2) Always have to use concealer to camouflage them.. but only able to lighten them
3) self - confidence - to have a flawless face..
4) dun wanna anyone to make fun with my moles..!!
5) The one near my nostril seemed to b growing in size.. i got so self-conscience that people are actually looking @ it...
6) And then dun wanna lose out to those xmm hahahaha jus jokin....

However, think the blemishs would only heal in 2 weeks time or so..then gota wait till it fades off
Now am wondering how to 'hide' them tmr to work hahaha... maybe plaster ??? hmmmmz

Back to work today, and as usual emails in the inbox were simply only one word to describe - TERRIBLE !!!

Then my GM early mornin 'on-call' me into his room and held me back for the whole morning...arghz..from when am i been accounted for such dumb task !! Really suay! Watever tedious boliaoz things always i will be asked to get involved.. damn damn !

Really so sick of the work !

Am i going to resign to fate or change the fate ???

I have also made appt for the mini comestic surgery on Friday, no point keep hesitating or hv the say-and-no-do attitude.. so plucked my courage this time....

I just wanna gain some self-confidence somehow..

However, i shall consult 1st then maybe proceed with the procedure immediately if i feel comfy with it .... see how thing turns out on that day..

Haha.. wonderz what should i do next in .next mth ??? lolx...

Feeling rather tired still...sleepy !

Last night had a scary & eerie nitemare that startled me tO wake up.. *shivered*

Shall try to sleep early.. if i can...