Thursday, July 21, 2005;23:59
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++ ..Have you wonderz.. ++
i will never forget the days we once had.
the days when you were everything to me.
my mind used to tell me that we'd be together foreverr.
but now i realize that was all a big dream which makes my heart shatters` into a million pieces.
i sometimes wonder if you still think of me and love me
or if to you i'm just a face in a crowd.
i wish so very much dat one day
we can have it all back.
but for now, i sit here silently
remembering' all the memories we once shared.
hoping that one day you will feel the same and
put back the pieces of mi broken heart
your existence is what makes mine now.
if love is painful and tortures us so much
why do we love?
why is it all we search for in life?
this pain, this agony?
why is it all we long for?
this torture,this powerful death of self?
maybe because its lurrve
Have you even been in love?
Horrible, isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens your heart
and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses.
You build up this whole armor for years,
so nothing can hurt you,
then one stupid person, no different from any
other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you.
They don't ask for it.
They do something dumb one day like kiss you,
or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.
It eats you up and leaves you crying in the darkness,
It hurts. Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
Its a soul-hurt, a body-hurt,
a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
i hate i love
cos sometimes you dun even know
..............why it hurts so much........................
the days when you were everything to me.
my mind used to tell me that we'd be together foreverr.
but now i realize that was all a big dream which makes my heart shatters` into a million pieces.
i sometimes wonder if you still think of me and love me
or if to you i'm just a face in a crowd.
i wish so very much dat one day
we can have it all back.
but for now, i sit here silently
remembering' all the memories we once shared.
hoping that one day you will feel the same and
put back the pieces of mi broken heart
your existence is what makes mine now.
if love is painful and tortures us so much
why do we love?
why is it all we search for in life?
this pain, this agony?
why is it all we long for?
this torture,this powerful death of self?
maybe because its lurrve
Have you even been in love?
Horrible, isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens your heart
and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses.
You build up this whole armor for years,
so nothing can hurt you,
then one stupid person, no different from any
other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you.
They don't ask for it.
They do something dumb one day like kiss you,
or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.
It eats you up and leaves you crying in the darkness,
It hurts. Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
Its a soul-hurt, a body-hurt,
a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
i hate i love
cos sometimes you dun even know
..............why it hurts so much........................
Sherr|ne 
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