but still unable to get to bed.. *Mr Zhou screaming for me*
Have tossed , turned in bed and then here i m .. in my blog
Thoughts run wild, heart sank...Thinking will i go insane any moment ?
No i can't.. never goin to go back 'there' , never goin' to meet the old 'me'..
Never let anger words turned into regret..
Never never..i swore to myself and i can do it.
Duno how come came online, seemed like login to look for some answers ..
or maybe looking for something to bring me a peace of mind
but actual fact dunno what i m looking for..
Is there a question in the 1st place ?
Was i seeking for unnecessary worries ?
"Girl, u shouldn't get defeated, believe in uself"
Maybe i already have the answer that have already leads me to the right direction
coz i always believe..yes i still do.
Need to work later, one min by one min have passed..
Hoping to hit my head against the wall..
Later bz bz at work... Giving out a loud sigh
A nice guy [A] was there to give me his 'warm shoulder' the moment i login, made me feel much better...thanks a lot. Though he said he OT at AMK coz of me...but still gota tell him not my fault.
Also thanks to Laoda in chasing me to bed *L*
I have turned to God, he told me to follow my heart...and i should leave my words to the universe, it will be seen and heard. I will do just fine.
Amen .. and goodnitez..
Sherr|ne 
* @ |02:34|
How she wishes all these will ever come to an end
Memories gone in selfish vain ?
Hurt in pain due to his thorough lack of sensitivity ?
His insecurity have swallowed him whole ?
Those hateful things he ever said to her are not words of pain cos afterall it ain't that interesting to him as he thought
She wish she is heard when she cried out in the middle of the night but all she heard was him breathing under his own world.
She don't want to think of him on how he wanna juz make 'her' happy
She don't want to think of him on how he always give in & refuse to hurt 'her'
She don't want to think of him on how he only respects 'her'..
....if 'she' could ever replace what they have..
However, she accepted all these in pain cos she understands him
'She' doesn't know how much they went through
'She' doesn't know how much they shared
'She' doesn't know how much pain & misery 'she' has caused her & him
She hates to think he is not emotionally enough to take care of his happiness
She hates to think he doesn't know he deserve to be happy too
She hates to think he can't truly be free the way he wishes
She tried everything, nothing came true
Each day ended, emotionally blue
Woke each morning, try and try again
Each day ended,in emotional pain
Her daily attempts, mending the torn
Each day ended, emotionally forlorn
They all have ended the same, rejected & distressed
Jokes now on her....with her emotions now all in hell
Laughter for 'her' ..
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Went shopping after work today
Bought a few clothings .. *Cheers*
Something i must have every week
Try it out.. but ONLY if you love VINEGAR
*No money back guaranteed from me* LOLz
-Updated again at 10:45pm-
Sherr|ne
* @ |15:01|
This siao laoda sms-ed me a few times super early in the morning, think from 8+am to 9+am..aiyOooo..but i was too sleepy to get up and reply him (-_-)Zzz
I replied him after i got up .. and he is even more siaoz without his internet *L*
Needed to cool my mind off for awhile so decided to go for a movie today....
Think have been some times since my last movie months ago...
The comedy movie i watched - "Guess Who"
About a black father having difficulty coming to terms with his daughter marrying a white guy.
In many ways, this father tried ways to break them up and making things difficult for the white guy who kept making attempt to make good impression but failed.
Eventually, of coz the father get to like this white guy and felt the love the white guy has for his daughter, he welcomed the white guy a part of his family.
A sweet ending!
Reviews after watching it :
1) The black father asked the white guy that he found that they are very different in many ways, different interests-nothing in common , backgrounds, how come his daughter will fall for him......The white guy replied it was actually the differences that make the other party a WHOLE coz he/she is not what you are...You are the another half of the other party too..
[So touching]
2) When a white and a black are an item , obviously will invited stares or insults from people, even from family.
But it is the love that holds them together.
So no matter how much & difficult the external obstacles they faced, it is the love for each other that makes the relationship go deeper & fear of losing.
3) The white guy asked the black father "What makes u able to tolerate a life with his wife for 25 years?"
The black father replied "She is always right"
The white guy "what? always right ? even she is wrong" ?
The black father replied again "Do you love her ? Do you want her " ? If u are, she is always right." -
[So sweet right ?! ]
But well.. this is just a movie... reality is still reality
Afterall, have an enjoyable movie nite today... ^_*
Sherr|ne
* @ |02:40|
The sun is shining but why it's always raining in my heart
We shared something special,it seemed to have no end
But now it hurts me just to remember your eyes used to tell me so much
Those words could never be find anymore
Now all you say you don't know where your future lies
It hurts me the most just to know that i am never part of anything about you,
you left me an empty world
I cried, i begged , i prayed but it all seemed useless...
you can't give me anything at all.
We've been hurt before,saw love walk out the door
In the end... Actin' as cold as ice
It's just a foolish game we played
you always left me here alone with all this lonely heartache
There are places I remember but you don't
There are sweet memories i remember but you forgot
There are so many things i wanna share with you but you reject
There are so many feelings i wanna tell you but you pretend and walk away
Whenever i said my words, i really wish they would be heard
You say you do when you don't --
you say you will when you won't.
You make me laugh make me cry --
you make me live make me die.
You put me in put me out --
you make me scream make me shout.
You pick me up put me down --
you make me queen make me clown
I have keep on running, following your pace
I have tried complyin' to your choice
but you just never care..
How I loved your that peaceful eyes on me, do you ever know?
How i missed your caring hugs and warm kisses on me, do you ever know ?
No..No..No.
I dreamt I got myself a shotgun
I blown my brains out, that is when you won't bother me no more
Sherr|ne
* @ |01:36|
At work, most of my major assignments have been done.. pheww !!.. dats why able to disturb Ace and Laoda in msn during work ... *L*
As usual Ace has been telling me he wants to die everyday or then love to gek me..
Well anyway invade his blog bahz - a colourful one..*L*
He said he will be moving back home for his attachment and won't be online for 11 weeks.. hmmmz dunno got bluff me or not ... *wonderz* coz i feelz he can't tahan without computer everyday lehz...
Laoda also the same sot sot one... always said no one wants him.. aiyoo slowly lar..fate will come larz... then have been into 'Adult Education' with me sia lolz *scary* hahaha... btw still waiting for his date with me leh *hintz hintz* but i have left that to Haze to org hahahaz...
Hmmz Ben Nan Ren will be starting his attachment this coming Monday.
Somehow think i got more excited than him.. it has been few years having dat kind of feeling of him going 'work'.. haha maybe some won't understand what i meant.
Anyway hope everything goes well for him with his attachment, mai tio bullied by the people there.. OOps should be the people beware,hope din get whacked by him LOLz
Have changed Sat off with my colleague for this week, so wont be working for this Sat.. but ..... sad.. then realised next week should be LONG WEEKENDS which should actually b my off day.. aiyah since already agreed to change and she seldom requested for exchange.... chin chai bah.. oso not much difference larz..Juz that realised one problem now , might be planning to go Sentosa over the long weekends for camping .. Though the plan is still in the process of planning... everything yet to confirm as all decided this event last minute. If confirmed, think only able to go after work.. run here n there.. or maybe i might decide not to go if so troublesome..haiz.. Thinking when can i go holis again ... *dreamz*
Sherr|ne
* @ |23:52|
Not much happenings these few days except always being gek-ed as usual. :~(
These few days , think this laoda sot sot liaoz.. but he has been very nice , he & siao Ace always accompanying me in msn.
Laoda loves to make a fool of himself to make mi laff which i suanned him like a retarded child esp. when he video conference with me on Sunday.. *L*
See below on what he sent me yesterday *L* thought abit sot but quite like the print screen he sent me, very nice...
Siao Ace has also created a blog for himself,he would asked me for some helps.. Initially he told me he dunno a thing about HTML and i realised he LIED !!!! kaOz...
Also having problems with my computers at home, desperately pushing my friend to come over my place to fix my computers today hahaaz ..if not how m i gg to come online, blog etc...no computer to come online can kill me sia
Yesterday, went Riverside Hotel to try out the Ala-Carte Buffet , not bad for about SGD19.90++ , the seafood was quite fresh. One day think have to bring dat glutton ben nan ren there..*pig*
A table of FOOD !!!
After the buffet, went for a stroll & chit-chat along the riverside till 11pm . Romantic hor *L*
What a romantic place right ? Scenery so beautiful outside the Riverside Hotel
Sherr|ne
* @ |15:24|
Someone's Watching Over Me - Hilary Duff
Click here to hear the song
Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonightSo I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems
life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over meSeen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreamsSo I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems
life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over meIt doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believeThat I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me
Sherr|ne
* @ |23:57|
Click here for Japan Trip Part I
The Tulip Doll Doll which is very popular..so kawaii rite ? Wanna get the stuff toy but mum won't allow.. Haiz.. But then it isn't cheap larz..
The traditional way of Japanese living.. Sleep on the floor with mattress "called Tatami". Was quite an experience..
Dunno what to buy for dat ben nan ren..not much things around in Japan that suits him LOLz..
Came across a row of handphone accessory of anime characters,hesitated awhile as there were so many characters i dunno at all..many never even see before..tried searching for characters that ben nan ren likes for days but failed...so eventually decided to at least get the naruto ones..quite cute oso mah..Then came across a ninja keychain with a sword behind..so ke ai...dunno why the sword just reminded me of him..i still got it despite find it impractical LOLz... As this ben nan ren loves milk chocolates, so got some special chocolates for him & also some tibits which SG dun have ..*_^ So better faster come claim it or they might landed in my stomach hahaha...
Basically the trip i got back a lot of tibits which SG does not have..got some for miself, for ben nan ren and as gifts for my manager & colleagues..
We went Japan with 4 luggages but came back with 6 .. Power right ? *L*
Sherr|ne
* @ |21:36|
Did quite enjoyed miself in Japan with all the sight-seeing & shopping.
Most of my time was there searching for tibits and cutey stuffs.. really spent a lot of such things sia...*_^
The most tedious thing throughout the trip was the difference in language, simply cant communicate.
Most Japanese really duno English, everything there is in Japanese , even TV programmes... *pengz*
really 'chicken talking to duck'
Nice up in the sky right ?? I was just so close to the clouds...but too bad unable to touch it *L*
The flight to Japan was 6 hours plus...fortunately able to sleep on the plane.. and there were also movies to watch in the plane.
So time passed quite easily.. and i have arrived .........in JAPAN !!!
Once i arrived, i started taking photos of things around that are different from what we have in Singapore.
Drinks vendor machines are simply everywhere, every corners in Japan..
Japanese mealboxes are also easily seen selling at all stores
Japan has many beautiful flowers on the streets or at places of interests.
I was there for the season for Sakura flower...
It was simply everywhere, all along the roadside.....Swee!
The lifespan for blooming of Sakura is only a week...very shortlived of its beauty
This trip to Japan was the most daring trip for me...
1st time went for hot spring , 1st time went for hot sand bath but the MUST thing gota be naked in public for these 2...
Lolz paiseh sia but since all the way there.. must try all out.. if not wasted ....so bochup naked naked lorz hahahahaha...
On the ferry to an island
I m calling someone ....*L*
More to come - Pls wait for update.... hehehez....
Sherr|ne
* @ |23:45|
Leaving today for the trip, finally.. so decided to post the last blog before i leave home..
Woke up early at 930am today with the intention of going saloon.
But was raining so heavily this morning, so i left home abit later..reached saloon at 1230pm..
Hair done till 4pm...hmmz hair like got abit shorter again...=P..
Then faster rush home to get the very final packing done.
Pray i din forget to bring anything..
Mood wasn't that good for these few days..Everytime somehow unable to 快樂﹐安心的走.. realised this realised that, tio gek here tio gek there..., at times really feel i think too much liaoz... I shd love miself more.., aiyah.....haiz.. dun care liaoz....must enjoy my 9 days in Japan...Sashimi, cold noodles, ramen, chawamushi etc..... here i come !! *L*
After back from holis, will be super bz back at work...... *stop thinking about it* , maybe dun come back better..find a rich jap hubby there bahz hahahaha..just kidding..
okayz..think i stop here..go double check my inventory list liaoz............come back then blog liaoz..
. [ *screamz* Ben Nan Ren ~ Studyyyyyyy hoooooor ! mai diam diam pig ZzZzzz !! ] .
Sherr|ne
* @ |19:15|
It will be days i won't be unable to blog liaoz....
Yesterday was really so tired...the eyelids were soooooooooo heavy at work..
Whole body wanna collapse liaoz, but need to clear as much work i can before i go on leave...
After work, my colleague asked me if i wanna go with her to Tiong Bahru Plaza for a 'fast' shopping. Thinking i still need to get some things for the trip.. i agreed.
Got miself a cute shoes, a top in babypink ...but still unable to get a sweater i like for the trip...
Got home around 8+. came online for awhile ..... then hahahahaz.... I SLEPT at 10pm !!!
Guessed my body really protested this time...
After a good long rest, woke up around 11am, feeling much 精神..
But around 3pm was forced by dad to go for 掃墓 *sighz*
Then have arranged to meet dat ben nan ren for dinner, we met up at 7+pm..
Had dinner at Tony Romas in Suntec..really a crowd there..
As i needed to get something from Carrefour & dat ben nan ren felt like buying vcds, so we headed to Carrefour after dinner.
This ben nan ren as usual always walked round the vcd section for several rounds, juz not to miss any nice vcds he wants..*L* . Hence, i just have to leave him there and walked over other sections to get the things i want. If not, shop closed liaoz,i still havent get my things hahahaha..exaggerating
Haven't packed my luggage, tomorrow really gota pack..if not wait missed out anything, i sure very chamz...hmmz actually quite confused in what to bring..haha thinking to bring whatever i can pull out from my wardrobe..coz at times i can really forgotten what clothings i actually have *L*
人的交往，全如幻影。
給你越多愛的人，會是傷你越深的人。
而給你越多記憶的人，會是讓你最感無情的人。
感情的聚散，來有時、去有時。
緣盡了的時候，你不得不放手。
有的人，走的時候並不是心甘情願的，
有時候 是老天爺的無情。
「緣份」我們見証了它確實存在。
「長相廝守、天長地久。」要求多久呢？
所以，我說，人的交往，像海市蜃樓 ，像幻影一般。
而給你越多愛的人、越多記憶的人，
總在離開你之後，讓你有最多的思念，和最多的不捨
Sherr|ne
* @ |02:31|
Today considered quite suay...work so many problems..frustrating!!
After work, went for a KTV session with my colleagues at KBox.
The suay thing happened again.
Actually, one of my colleagues & i wanna withdraw money from the ATM at Tanjong Pagar MRT Station but the queue was sooo long...
So i told my colleague Parklane has a ATM just outside, somemore mostly no queue. So we decided to walk out of the queue.
The moment we have reached, Grr..damn! the only ATM at Parklane was out of order! The nearest is at Dhoby Gaut MRT Station..but there is no way we going to walk so far for it. The most important thing we need to get some cash for the cabfare back home later.
Whatever, decided not to think about it 1st as we were late for our reservation..we were hoping the machine might be 'fixed' after our singing session.
As we havent had time for dinner, so we have to smuggle burgers into Kbox..hahaz..we all hid our burger in our bags..Once the waiter has served our drinks, all faster sneaked out the burgers and gobbled..Well one burger just unable to fulfil for my stomach..
The singing session was quite moderate as most of us were quite tired after a day's work plus i also have been sleeping late since Tuesday.
Left the place around 1130pm, we walked to the ATM again..Sighz still out of order..Suddenly i remembered that months ago someone gave me $15 which i have hid in a secret compartment of my wallet.. just nice for me to take a cab home..
Afterall, still not that suay but then *sobz* that $15 was something i kept as remembrance..now no more liaoz... =(
Got home around 12+am, really tired but as usual still come online as my hair is still wet...blowdrying it while talking craps with Ace *L* and also having my cup noodles haha..
*Yawnz*.. really time to sleep.. Its already 2a.m...
Sherr|ne
* @ |02:03|
