Total 8 of us at the KTV.... 6 of them are smokers.. almost suffocated me with their smokes..especially i m still not feeling well...worsen my condition.. Initially, they even intended to go Devils Bar after KTV which i have turned dwn the invitation coz CNY is around the corner.. i wish to enjoy with no sickness...but was overruled hahaz.. but luckily there was a change in plan..
But my throat seemed to become more sore & pain....
Got home around 3am..totally concussed in the car when on way home, it was really a long day.
After i got home..immediately knocked out...ZzzzZzz
With all the recent supressed emotions, been able to see alot of things which may seemed to be the way i think & feel but it actually aint...yeah maybe my instinct got problem lolz..
but feel alot of previous hopes,feels and tots have seemed to change already...
Is that a good thing ? Don't know... time will tells...
Why am I trying to love you,When you can't do the same?Why do I keep on tryingTo win this stupid game?How can I forgive youFor all those times I cried?How can I stay mad at you,With all this love inside?Why can't I just walk awayFrom what's no longer there?Why can't I just accept the factThat you no longer care?When will I finally realizeThat it's time to set you free?Then maybe I'll stop fighting forSomething never meant to be.
Sherr|ne 
* @ |22:29|
Alot of things keep running around my mind...body tired but the mind won't rest..
Was off from work today,so i decided to have my hair highlighted for the CNY.
Went saloon in the morning and after done with my hair, i met dat ben nan ren for lunch in town...well guessed he was too tired..we went home after lunch @ mos burger.
Had a dream a few days ago, a dream that i have yet to dream for ages..a dream it seemed to have just happened yesterday and it was what i used to experience and encounter b4..leaving me somehow a sense of heartpain....so unusual so weird...
In the dream,i was the princess of his life which i was used to..always there to protect and dote me..
In real life,i m glad he has found the right princess for him..he does deserve someone better than me.. but still dunno how come out of the sudden dreamt of this after so long...an omen?
Maybe a sign i am just not dat good for anyone...
Well, recently has a lot of emotional feelings running up n down within me...making me very luanz of miself..好煩!
Feeling...
Confused
Lost
Remorseful
Messy
Frustrated
Just hope things will turn out better for my life...good things quik quik come into my life.. lolz...
*praying hard*
Gota get back to bed and try to sleep... gota work later... ZzzzZzz...
Sherr|ne
* @ |01:27|
Been having body aches since yesterday ... the sickening feeling of gg work is here againz...
Now throat feeling sore & pain , whole body juz dun feel right liaoz.....jiatlat... M i gg to be sick from all the virus around me??
Mum down with bad cough... Ben Nan Ren down with cough n flu...aiyooOoo...
My body is tellin me to rest, rest ... rest... have a break....真的好累 !
This sat still gota work...ggrrz....
Have a short chat with a 'Gui' today at work... Well, find him really a nice person to tok to...very humourous ...also quite a sentimental guy.. =P
Anyway cant type much today... need to rest early...
Gota take "Pi Pa Gao" before bedtime..if not the condition might worsen tomolo..
And also have been ordered to go sleep early by a benben... so better be guai.. if not if i really got very sick, sure been said till very jiatlat LOLz..
都已經過了一段時間了
你找到了屬於你的真愛
而我還在原地徘徊
等待著 期待著
不知道我是等待你回頭
還是期待著另一段愛情
對你騙我
我始終還是拿不出恨
你快樂就好
就算你快樂的原因不是我
雖然那包袱曾經給過我幸福
但那畢竟還是沉重的....
Sherr|ne
* @ |01:02|
The internal audit over.
My monthly assignment done.
My weekly report done.
Balance work : inputting all data into the new system,updating & act on the ISO findings *sighz*
When can i take leave sia..... ? ? ? Poor Poor Me *cry*
Luckily, FrIDaY iS coMiNg !! HOLIDAY !!!
Dat Ben Nan Ren
He is sick again... flu & sore throat..dunno why always so easily sick one ? *shakez head*
Why i can't get sick.. and he diam diam sick. Everytime he sick also unable to pass virus to me..
I must be so much healthier & stronger than him sia *In other words, he si bei si bei weak LOLz*
The one dun need MC got sick , the one wants MC unable to get sick..Gosh! What a life!
Think need to stuff him with toxinz oops.. TOnicZ .. he said he need to be under more cold wind and jia spring chicken..."Yi Du Gong Du" .. -_-' .. What i think i should get him are more "menthol" /peppermint & more peanutz hahaha...*Ai tio killed by him liaoz =P*
One thing i realised, everyday eat vegetables don't seemed dat healthy & strong or dun get sick easily to me leh.. got an example so vivid *LOLz* .. must be 'pirated cai" hahahaz..
苦酒滿杯
一杯又一杯
一杯是無奈
一杯是心酸
一杯是對未來的期望
吞下去的是無奈'喝下去的是心酸
苦酒又滿杯
今夜又是無奈又心酸
Sherr|ne
* @ |23:30|
Audit is always like 'battle' between all depts.. seeing which dept did better.. which don't...
which said bad remarks abt which dept..sort of office politics. My manager cannot lose face one..so imagine how stressed i can be... -_-''
Felt quite relieved after the audit, was rushing all the updating and filing yesterday. OT till 8pm....The relief was like a rock suddenly vanished from ur body *shiok*...Another relief is also i have managed to finish about 65% of my work, the most happiest part is i left with relatively alot of time to finish my remaining 35% of the work...Initially was so stressed with the amount of assignments and works consigned to me...i was so worried i wont be able to finish all in time...haha well..it proved i m such a capable and faster worker *BHB* =P ... But still i really need a break from work sia... haiz....
Online since 8+pm , nothing much to do...ntg to surf..dat ben nan ren got presentation to prepare so i dun wanna disturb him..
So since i have ntg better to do... i decided to update my SherSher's LoveHome ,
but realised not much for me to update as well..amended here abit..amended there abit .. LOLz..
Those boliaoz ones can have a look there.. best is can help scribble abit in my guestbook..it seemed so DEAD.. *sobz*
Sherr|ne
* @ |23:20|
Have been frustrated over work since Thurs.
Friday actually has applied for leave, need a break from work..but my manager asked me not to take it..fortunately ntg was planned for this leave as dat ben nan ren bo eng for me... if not i sure grrrrz again...
More duties and responsiblities have been entitled to me, it may seemed coz the management recognized your capabilities so they put u all in charge but in employee 's point of view, that is extra work..beyond your job scope..and pay is still the same.
So many colleagues are having much higher post and pay than me , and yet i am the one being asked to doing what those higher posts shd be doing..wahkaoz..even my senior executive said how much the company pays you, you producez the amount of work.. yah how true...
but that is reality too if you are asked to do the workss...
What i detest most is my manager always love to ask me for meeting at the very last minute in which i may have arranged or have appt after work..but she is the kind won't let u go or even ask u to cancel your appt even after several rejections from u.
She told me she has given me a very good appraisal and i must prove miself..oh pls i have yet to see the bonus yet and didnt i have proved for my past performance all these while ?? gGrrrz..
This happened on Thursday. I have already arranged to meet dat ben nan ren for dinner after work but at 530pm, my manager told me to attend the operational meeting which only consists of the top management ..i only a small fly leh... i kept rejecting as i have already meeting dat ben nan ren.. but she just wont let me go...
Pekcek, i followed to the conference room...After the speech of my AGM, i asked to leave..phewz.. if not dunno how long dat ben nan ren gota wait for me..grrr..i never like to make him wait...
Once i met the ben nan ren, i kept grumbling..
Thankfully, he was there to let me rattling non-stop, be my listening ear ... and somemore his presence definately cool me down *_^
Although he may find my grumbling boring or do not understand or feel what i m frustrated abt ..but at least he bother to listen bahz...
I was simply going insane on Sat at work.. so many problems for sat's work..and another thing i buay song abt is i have already assigned to do additional works but i cant do it on sat.. i have to do another duty..I kept screaming and swearing at work till everyone including my manager buay tahan me.. But who can understand i already cannot control the inner frustrations at the point of time...
I also told myself i wont do any OT as yet..
Really need a break or an enjoyable nite out....when u feel u need someone to sayang and pei you but is always not there for you......really feel like long time bo enjoy liaoz...
I m plotting to take a LONG leaveeeee one of these dayzzzz... *evilz*
haiz..dunno larz..dunno how long i can tolerate...see how the bonus tellz...is it worth it?
This morning even have a bad dream .. dreamt of that ben nan ren...-_-
Sherr|ne
* @ |15:45|
Went with my colleagues & supplier.. it was a treat from the supplier..total 10 of us...
Have a great time.. all enjoyed with siaoness hahaz...including me of coz..
*The "B.A.D" .. hahaz*
*m3 & DoL* *SueAnn & m3* *VaL & m3*
*m3 & Kenneth*
*m3 after KTV with a sehz face*
--- that's all... need to get to bed ZZzZzzz..... [To Be Continued]
Sherr|ne
* @ |03:57|
Somehow got into a sandwiched love affair..haiz..
A regretted party asking for forgiven but the another party already moving forward and making the 3rd brave move again after 5 yrs...Really don't know how to side both of them as both are my friends..I can understand how the regretted party felt but also could understand why the party wish to move ahead of his life...
Sometimes life is really full of contradictions...
2 persons who were in love suddenly turned into 'strangers' bearing hatred for each other, pushing blame to each other...
Tried to reconcile them but however seemed impossible..especially somehow i hv got myself involved in some ways
But i don't wish to change anything in my life as yet... Let nature takes it course bahz..
However,after several tots...i m already considered quite fortunate in some ways..can even still be envied by others which i couldnt believed/agreed... hahaz dunno either..there is no definate ans for this..Everyone has their own stories & reasons which others might not be able to know or understand fully...
葉子的離開﹐是風的追求﹐還是樹不挽救留﹖
如果樹珍惜葉子﹐就不會讓風帶走。
如果你不主動愛惜一段感情﹐當它離你而去時﹐
是你放棄還是你未曾珍惜過﹖
Sherr|ne
* @ |23:45|
As was meeting ben nan ren & ahkor @ 8pm, i quickly rushed home to get change..luckily was late in meeting for awhile nia
Haha from work to Orchard then home then back to Orchard sia -_-"
We had dinner @ Marche then went KBox...
Did i enjoy this New Year Celebration ? To be frank, no..din enjoyed.. for many reasons...
I feel i am not getting any happier day after day...
But thankful & glad spent this day with ben nan ren again..
The 2 歌‘神’(神經病)
我和笨男人
又是我和笨男人 - 最愛這照片
我﹐笨男人 ﹐ Ahkor @ Kbox Orchard
這是我 after countdown 哈哈﹗
很多事已經不能真得去了解。。已經讓我實在無法再嚮前﹐
我的心還能負荷多久﹐多少
一切的一切只能讓我更難過﹐更灰心。。因為你讓我看清一切。。
我說我需要你。。可是你還是想他。。
新的一年了﹐要對自己好一點﹐ 不想再傻傻的。。
我只想要一點一點的安全感﹐不想做便利商店。。。
一個對你好的人﹐一個敷衍你的人。。你會珍惜哪一個﹖
他對你的每一個不好﹐你可曾設身處地地去想過﹐去體會﹐
去感受你也曾那樣對代對你好的人
可是還是把矚目放在對你敷衍的人﹐把對你好的人置之度外
難道人生是這樣﹖越好﹐越不會珍惜嗎﹖
當一個人好愛好愛另一個人的時候﹐一切就變得很傻﹐很無阻。。
什麼都去遷就。。什麼都忍。。。
真的好愛好愛﹐但。。。
Sherr|ne
* @ |23:59|
