Went Expo Sitex Fair last Sunday (28/11), it really sure was crowded and can really see a lot of pples willing to buy a lot, Xbox larz, printer larz, etc...economy bad mehz ?!
At the Fair, ordered a new PC, bought a Acer LCD monitor to replace my current bulky CRT monitor and also a Canon Powershot digital camera..Wowzz! Haha
My home goin' to have 3 PCs when the new one deliverz this coming Sat..abit too much LOLz..
Interested to see my workstation in office ??? See below then... Nice ? Pink enuff? ....
Hehe today finally managed to get a nice pink photoframe, tmr can bring to office to replace those old ones..
My hope & dream are broken, beaten and worn...
Sadness fills my soul, one desperate cry
One step is hard, the next is pain, eventually hurt
Swallowed my pride, Casted all aside but you've thrown away the pieces away on the ground
Was it all for naught with nothing to gain?
All in selfish vain?
Frozen in time by life's cruel attacksss
With my conscious as my guide..
Knowing in my heart I hv tried
Sherr|ne 
* @ |22:35|
1st day @ the new office(22/11), the electricity at my new dept diam diam tripped..whole dept couldnt operate smoothly even after lunch.. was about 3pm then finally the electrician solved the problem. Most chamz thing was the electricity is back but then my email diam diam hanged when i tried to read it.. and Kenneth(my IT) couldnt fix it even after work...Simply my pc couldnt be in use the whole day for the 1st day @ new office ...I have to force and nag him to fix it by his side if not he is not allowed to go home.. i even asked my manager to keep an eye on him after leaving office for Orchard hahahahaz..
So at 10pm, i sms Kenneth to check if he had fixed my pc... he replied everything is ok...heng ah..
When i was on my way back home from Orchard at 10.35pm, received a suprise sms from a 'special' friend..really dunno which wind made him sms me after so long. The last time bumped into him was during last year at Marina South..really puzzled me by his sudden sms..*ponderz*
After moving to the new office, havent had enuff sleep...gota wake up early everyday and also have been out these few days after work.. hehehz..getting haggard liaoz lolz lolz
These few days also have been trying to find pink pc mouse, pink handfone holder & nice pink photoframe for my new workstation...but still cant find...sighz..Now my workstation is so Pinkiez hahahz..the colour really make my day at work 'pleasant' to my mood.
Today went Toa Payoh to jalan jalan after work...really find it far sia....bought a cute toy which the head keeps moving one...hv been wanting to buy it when it was launched but was too ex.. now price has went lower..so finally i had it..it was so lovable ..
After jalan for few hours, went fiesta to have yummy Chasoba....my fav...
Thinking of the long journey by MRT from Toa Payoh to Boon Lay really freaked me out, so i decided to get home by cab...Aiyoo waste $$ againz..lolz
The best part or shd it be suay part was when i stood outside my home looking for my keys, i realised i had forgotten to bring out my keys today...hahahaz.. called my sis a few times, thinking to ask her to open the door for me..but no one pick up as she was bathing
Bo bian, gota called n troubled my mum..
This Fri gota go dental to have consultation abt my teeth.. my wisdom teeth have been pushing against my front teeth n affecting it.. have to consult what is the best solution to fix it..Really scared to go dental since young.. hahaz...and now go one time really can cost a BOMB!
Sherr|ne
* @ |23:55|
Love is built on hope.Sure it is filled with risk and with disappointment
I feel so dishearted...
The thing that spins in my head is why...
There was nothing I could do to protect myself....Its happening again ??!?
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Today is the day to shift to the new office.
Around 12pm, my manager told us to head for our new office as work today dun seemed dat busy.
After arriving the new office, we immediately explored the whole area..gosh heng not as bad as i expected...
The problem is our cartons and computers have yet to arrive even after we hv came back from lunch @ Amoy street around 2pm..Actually didnt tot of staying back to unpack my things , was thinking tmr (Sunday) then go back unpack n rearrange as i was very tired....but in the end, stay back till 4+pm as our things finally arrived to the new office.
At 430pm, after unpacking and rearranging our stuffs, we feel we need to get some new stationery for the new environment. So we decided to go IKEA...
When we got there, it was very crowded...unfortunately we didnt managed to get wat we wanted yet we shopped there for almost 1 n half hours. Only one of us managed to get wat she wants.
So after leaving IKEA at around 615pm , i took a cab from IKEA to Jurong Point as i wanted to see if i can get any nice stationery even though i m already very tired, i can feel my muscles all cramped and aching.
After aligned, I headed for Popular Bookstop to get some trays,files,pens etc...then went GiftLand to see if there are any things i can find for the new place.
Hehe i bought 2 cute ornaments.
After all the shopping, got home around 745pm.. lucky mum got me my dinner, if not i wont hv the energy to do so..
After bathing and taken my dinner, i packed all the necessary things needed to clean my workstation and the things i have bought for bringing to the new office tomorrow...
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Sherr|ne
* @ |23:50|
Whole body aching and bonez almost goin to break due to the need to dispose GIGANTIC amount of files and documents which have been kept for years with me hahaz.. Really one HUGE spring cleaning. I simply thrown away 80% of the documents...i really know how to keep JUNKS sia LOLz..
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A lot of totz today.. dun feel very at ease again...
At times its really tough when you are not the one calling the shots...you follow the pace..
people come and go...stay n leave...sweet n cold...love n hate..
I really wonderz when is this comin to light ??
Sherr|ne
* @ |17:10|
Sometimes things you don't wish to know, by any means you might get to know it..
Sometimes u rather heard from the person than from others. ..
Sometimes you just dun wish to know, but it never seemed so..
Maybe that is God's Will. ..There might be a reason for you to know abt it..
You chose not to look my way or even speak
The days you do I often get weak
I tried so hard to be the best
Lost myself in trying to be what you needed
There was no way I could have succeeded
Being snubbed by you has left me burned
I don’t know where else to possibly turn
Forgive me for my anger
I’ve tried hard
I longed to be the one you embraced
Seems I’ve been on the wrong side of the road
Weighed down by the burden, need to lighten the load
Look past this strange twist of fate
Longing for your touch all the while
I can’t breathe due to the tightness in my chest
Angry thoughts haunt me nightly
Damn these feelings of bitterness and anger
Can I survive or am I in danger
Do you wait for signs everyday, which sometimes leave you with hopeless expectations ?
Do you wait for every move and action made and interpret and at times realised you are like a fool watching every moment and desperately waitin to be noticed of your existence ?
Do you ever received a simple smile from someone and that can makes you happy? A short conversation can makes your whole day brighter. The empty space in your heart filled ?
How is it that so much time spent loving and caring for a person can suddenly crumble to the ground?
How can words of tender endearments suddenly be turned to comments of blind hatred ?
Why is change such a feared presence?
Where is it we go when we step outside of the comfort of familiarity?
Where is the strength ?
Is there a cloth thick enough to wipe away the blood of bleeding hearts?
Maybe time is of essence for this , and this is of essence for our survival. ....
Sherr|ne
* @ |23:34|
Sacrifice- is the symbol of love & many are the believers of the line above those who
sacrifice , what do they gain?
Nothing but hurt and pain
Sacrifice
So what is the meaning if the line above???
Making others happy- does it pay? Think again, in the long run
You were made to play,
Made to play the deadly game of love
Where in the end, You were left all alone
Sacrifice
What is love?
I ask you all ,answers will be many, I am sure
But I ask you to experience, Experience the love
Not the love that makes you happy
But the love that hurt
The love that makes you cry
The love that shatters you inside
The love that you so much need, But can never get
Sacrifice
Now do you still believe in the line above???
Sometimes proved and tried million million times and on top of everything sacrificed even a lot more and expect maybe some in return but still resulted been hung out to dry.
Have you wonderz what the future holds or what is left ?
It might be putting you to despair with the lack of sharing and proving on the other end....and also not willing to sacrifice a little for you.... definitely an incapable to seek what you have hoped for.
At times u found out or realised through the hard way.
Do u still want to keep the faith and trust on it & risking paying the ultimate sacrifice?
Some say you should follow your heart, not your brain,
but what about the turmoil, the devastation & the pain?
Was it irreplaceable or made it look cheap?
Sighz..today gastric so uncomfortable..must be coz have been staying in hunger too long during lunchtime coz my colleagues decided to shop around before packing back to office to hv our lunch.
Everyone is so bz in office coz going to shift to new office this weekend. However, feedback of the new office seemed quite disappointing..No one praise it is nice at all hahaz.. i really wonderz.. Soon i will get to see it with the new tables and chairs which was commented as ugly by others and kpkb..
This Ace always love to bully me by calling me 'name' that greatly doesnt suit me in msn.
Feel like koking him in person
Wonderz in person will he behavez dat way ? LOLz but he don't wish to meet me in person hahaz..
Had a relatively long msn chat with Haze in the late noon. Really great chatting with her.
She let me realised a lot of things and also let me know her better.
Though we onli seen each other once and din really tok much in person, it is really unbelievable that we could be so open to each other, maybe we have some commons. She can be so direct and daring which surprised me despite on the impression i have on her. I will always be there if she needs a listening ear..Keep up your faith ok girl...
Could life have been different? Will we ever know?
Feelin it is goin to happen again.... ... ... .. .. .. .. ...
Sherr|ne
* @ |22:30|
Got easily frustrated in office if anyone come tok to me or even asked me for assistance.. lolz...cant ctrl it sia....no wonder Kenneth so scared i face black black.. he said i m so unapproachable when my face black black hahahaz..but i m so lovable,why scared of me hahahahaa...
On my way back home today, had alot of thinkings flow thru my mind...
Is it so easy to forget things u do not wish to remember ? When remembered, who it hurted the most ?
When one said dun mind, in the heart does one feel dat way sincerely or need to pretend you have forgotten which shd b best kept forgotten ?
What will things be now when previous decisions were not made ?
Was updatin' my webbie while watched the last episode of "Ren Wo Ao You", it was a happy ending...happy ending feelz real good...Everyone get what they want...Qi Yi Wu really shuai !! hahaz
Anyway, got to finish all my updates for my webbie but guestbook still so 'empty' *hintz hintz*
Really hoping to see the updates of the webbie of my nan ren but bet he has been really so lazy to do anythin abt it...kept seeing those wallpapers.. *pukez* think he feeling itchy..wanna me to whack him LOLz..
Have brought some works home to do.... but think i m too lazy for it......
Sherr|ne
* @ |22:09|
夢想 理想 幻想 狂想 妄想我只想堅持每一步該走的方向就算一路上 偶而會沮喪
Today is Public Holiday.Tot of wakin' up at noon but sighz haha my mum woke me up to watch "Jerry Yan Special" on Channel 8 at 10.30am.
Around 4+ pm had a nap till 7pm...seemed like nothing interesting lolz..eat,sleep,sleep and eat...
Tmr gota back to work again... Haiz... This whole week will be quite bz.. Need to rush out the monthly 'assignment' again and prepare to shift to new office this coming sat and sunday. All my packing are not done at all..Chamz..
Hmmz dat nan ren shd b getting his result this sat (if i did not rem wrongly).. he better dun fail any paper, if not he is goin to be a pighead liaoz hahahaz...
My this nan ren said he wanna eat fried oysters & eggz againz..OMG! He is simply addicted to it..jia buay sianz one.. ..but i wana Fresh oysters.. yummiez....
Sherr|ne
* @ |21:53|
*Sighz* Went to bed only 5+am but kanna waken up by Mum at 10+am. My family have intended to have a family outing today. So i dragged myself out of bed.... I was so stoned. My family said i obi good *sighz*
1st we went to have lunch @ Telok Blangah Coffeeshop then we went to pay a visit to my granduncle who had a minor operation last few days ago.
After visiting, mum wanna go Katong Shopping Centre to get some pants. Then we headed for Parkway Parade for shopping. Everywhere was so crowded as it was Hari Raya Puasa and many do not need to work tmr. Feel like kicking everyone home hahahaz
At 3pm, i was hungry.. but whole family was not but no choice they have to go eat with me hahahaz.. Had the famous Bak Chor Mee.. yummyz...
At 6pm, i got hungry again hahaha and have one big bowl of tomyam ramen & a bowl of soursop.Dunno wat is wrong wif me?? Hmmmz not enuff sleep should be not much of an appetite,but i behaving the opposite hahaz..
Finally around 7+pm, my family decided to head for home.. luckily tmr dun have to work........
Came online now to do this blog and another windows msn chat with dat nan ren who is trying to gek me as usual...Later i will knock out till tmr NOON hahahahhaz....
Sherr|ne
* @ |21:07|
Today went to work and tot need to have a battle with those 'files' again but when i got to work around 8.35am,my manager said she has asked another colleague to do it..haha of coz i m happy over it..
At 2+ pm , i headed home from work. That ben nan ren really woke up & came online @ 3pm as he predicted yesterday.We have a short msn chat before he went for lunch.
So i went for a nap till 6pm before meeting dat nan ren. Think he
obsessed over fried oysters...we went to Somerset "Da Pai Dan" again for fried oysters,bbq stingray,sambal sotong plus 2 cans of beer. Haha what a feast...
After that, we weren't sure where to go after the meal... So we walked
around almost the whole Orchard,thinking where we should go...Tot of going for movie but there was no movie that both of us would like to watch......We walked from somerset to lido to Far East Plaza then to Cineleisure to Plaza Singapura hahahahaz....
Finally at 12am, we decided to find a place to sit down as
we were really tired over the walks...the place = Selegie KBox lolz lolz ...
We sang till 4+am....His voice even turned coarse.. lousy hoooor...
Got home around 5am, immediately knocked out.... he too.
In the rhythm of life, we sometimes find ourselves
out of the tune,but as long as there's someone which becomes our melody, the music plays on.
Thanks for being one of my best songs
Sherr|ne
* @ |05:10|
Today during lunchtime, my colleagues & i went to have a look @ our new office. I need to find out how the fengshui of my workstation @ the new office hahaz.. hmmz not too bad.. juz not as isolated as my old office whereby i can do anything i wan. Therefore, after shifting to the new office,have to be very careful when do 'illegal' things lorzz hahahaz...
Now at the old office, i have been always late for work... Shifting to the new office .. i sure chamz liaoz.. the walking distance from the mrt at least take 15 more mins as usual... =P
Realization...... Why won't one ever spare a tot when answering those questions ??
Why make one feel so low ?
What wrongs were done ?
Sometimes put oneself into another person's shoes as well.. u might feel the pain....
Realised being the 'optional' party is already very hurting.
Initiative was made but was taken as optional.
When the priority are occupied, the optional came to place.
Doesn't one deserve a bit of respect.
I really hope thing will just get better .......
Words left unspoken or unexplained hurt most...
but also the spoken words... *sighz*
Sherr|ne
* @ |22:29|
Kanna waken up by Mum to go for lunch @ 11+ am, sighz not enuff sleep.
After got home from lunch, eyelids were very heavy,whole body was aching. So not sure around what time, really buay tahan and went to nap till 6pm. It was a rainy day, just nice for nap.
Dad went to work & Mum went for folk-dancing, so left my sis & me @ home..So no dinner was prepared for us. Initially thought of ordering for pizza but have to wait for 1 and half hours for it due to rainy day, so finally we opt to instant mee as i m too hungry to wait.
The knot still kept unsolved......
Sherr|ne
* @ |23:59|
Met my Nan Ren for dinner @ "Da Pai Dan" (Somerset). We had fried oysters ,chicken wings and dessert.He has been craving for fried oysters for many days, haha finally he got to eat it.
Then we met Roger(ahkor) for KTV @ Sunlight Partyworld till 3am. The most funny thing we forgotten about the time,after ktv we walked all the way to Mohd Sultan to see if there is still any pub/disco we can have a drink. When we got there, all the clubbers were all heading home and we juz got there... hahahaz..
In the end, we decided to go home, we were actually all very tired..When I got home, i immediately knocked out and also fortunately i went to bed before my dad got home... phewzz if not kanna caught red-handed.
Sherr|ne
* @ |16:05|
-_-"
Today weather forcecast of my manager = typhoon coz monthly GP is out and it's loss which is not possible so now whole office finding which dept made the errors or what are the causes...haiz if errors done from my dept, everyone sure going to kanna jiatlat.... so better siamz from her as far as possible...
Went Tiong Bahru Plaza for shopping during lunchtime, packed Macs back for lunch and bought the "Purple" Hello Kitty, i think this will be the only one i will owned hahaz..If not Val wana buy it, i dun think i would have buy it..
Feeling abit easily frustrated today... not sure why....
Maybe i m thinking too much again.....
I asked my Nan Ren to visualise if he will cry when one day i m dead...fortunately he said he shd will cry bahz... if not i sure be a ghost and haunt him for life hahahaz...its hard to make him cry or simply impossible...really wonderz when will be the day i will see him cry..be it for joy or sadness...well he sure said WLL(wait long long) lolz.. My point of view, when a guy cried doesnt mean he is weak but dun cry too much e.g. the girl has left him or what..dats useless.
As for HIM, he won't even cry a single tear for me.. will he ??
Haha who knows arh ?
Sherr|ne
* @ |21:00|
Initially, asked him to help me create a nice blog for me but he was so relunctant and said wait till he got up then say
-_-'' . Haiz, dats my Nan Ren, bloody lazy.
After he went back to sleep, i decided to update my webbie and created this blog myself since i m having Monday blues @ work.. hehe so happy to get some updates done ^_^
Around 5pm, Haze msn msgz me and we have a short chat b4 she needed to make a phonecall..Though the chat was a short one, she reminded of me how i was like a year plus ago..silly and helpless...
Really hope her wait will be worthwhile...& dat guy will finally wake up and realised what he has been not treasuring and missing. GUYS!
*shook head*
I really wish n pray everyone around me be happy and lucky in life...
Sherr|ne
* @ |16:49|
